So I have another late post for you. I had school all weekend so I really had no time that I could be on the computer unless it was cutting into my sleep. School also made it a bit harder this week in completing some of my good deeds because I was working on homework during the week which seemed to take more precedence.
The interesting part as I was preparing to write this blog and the deeds from last week, a piece of me really wanted to lie to you. I wanted it to seem like I completed all the deeds, completed the makeup deeds, and ended the month 31/31. It’s funny to notice that ego part that wants everything to seem “perfect, to not feel like I failed, to not feel judged. Then I come to the conclusion that the only person judging me is ME! I am judging myself in that moment. It’s like that quote “What others think of you is none of your business”…. I can not feel judged unless I am also judging myself. Especially when I DON’T know what others will or are thinking.
I know my intentions and my circumstances so there is no reason for me to feel ashamed. By lying, I would only be harming my self esteem by buying into the judgements that I placed on myself. So as I learned in class, one of the most powerful tools to healing is compassionate self forgiveness. Forgiving yourself for the judgements you place on yourself and others. So “I forgive myself for judging myself as failing…I forgive myself for buying into the belief that this process has to be perfect”.
So let’s get on to the deeds last week:
1/27/14: SAY GOOD MORNING TO YOUR CO-WORKERS:
This one was easy, because I do it everyday. I did make more effort to just say Good Morning to everyone else though too
1/28/14: MYSTERY DEED aka PUT A LOVE NOTE IN A LOVED ONES LUNCH:
So the loved one I chose never brings lunch to work so of course I made him a lunch this day and left him a cute little note with it. I left it on the counter as a surprise. Our little one tried t o ruin the surprise and tell daddy to go look in the kitchen but daddy just thought it was mommy’s lunch. So I had to call him after I left and let him know the I made it for him.
Today I also completed the past deed of doing a TEn MINUTE MEDITATION. I completed the meditation in my counseling session.
1/29/14: DO A LITTLE DANCE AND BE SILLY:
I tend to complete this one a lot. Usually me and my son make up little dances and try to make daddy laugh. This time, my son was already sleep, so i just did a silly dance for the big boy. It included moonwalking so I bet you can just imagine.
1/30/14: LEAVE SOME HOMEMADE COOKIES AT YOUR NEIGHBORS DOOR:
So I picked this deed thinking that It would be easy to complete along with the other deed of making cookies and sharing. I have realized though that’s its not so easy for me to bake during the week so I may have to save these deeds for a weekend.
1/31/14: GIVE YOURSELF A PEP TALK:
This one was a good one for today because it was my first day back at school this month. I was also behind on doing homework and stressing about that, along with working and trying to get a lot of stuff done for a new person that I will be training. So although simple, my person pep talk was just telling myself to do the best I can, what gets done will get done, and let it go into the universe. PS: I got my homework back and got 200/200. YAY!
BONUS: I also completed the deed of BE MINDFUL of my please, thank yous, and you’re welcomes.
2/1/14: LET ANOTHER CAR TAKE THAT PARKING SPOT and smile and wave:
I picked this one for this day because I thought it would be easy since I have school and most people arrive at the same time. But when I arrived on this day there was no one there at the same exact time as me so really I had no one to give a spot to. The intentions were there but the opportunity was not. It will stay in my mind though.
and yesterday Sunday, If I’m sticking to the truth, I didn’t even pick a good deed. So there was nothing this day for Good Deeds to complete. Full day of school and forgot to look in the journal that morning.
SO FAR: this week with the bonus deeds, I completed 6 deeds still which is awesome bringing my count to 26 out of 33 deeds so far. AWESOME
THIS WEEKS DEEDS:
2/3/14: GIVE CREDIT WHEREVER YOU CAN
2/4/14: START A BIRTHDAY CALENDAR to help you remember to send cards
2/5/14: SMILE WHEN YOU TALK ON THE PHONE, it makes your voice friendly
2/6/14: bless your interruptions as an opportunity to TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND SMILE
2/7/14: MYSTERY DEED
2/8/14: LEAVE A BIG TIP