My Very First Time, I’m Addicted!

“Oh there is a bench, I always imagines leaving my first letter on a bench”

“But no one is going to see it there. Don’t you want to leave it where someone is going to find it?”

“Someone will find it there. I’m sure someone will walk by that bench”

I walk up to the bench with my blood rushing through me, ready to leave my very first letter on New Year’s Day. What a way to start 2015. This is the very moment I have worked up to. I trudged through muddy resistance over and over to get to this moment. This is the kickoff. Here we go. (looks around to make sure no one is looking). I leave the letter on the bench and take a picture of it to post on Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter for later.

bench

I wrote a few letters leading up to this moment, and I don’t even know which one this is. I don’t even know what it says and if it’s even a “good” one. I never re-read them before I seal them up because I know if I do that then I will start working with my mind and judging the crap out of it. Probably end up ripping it up because “it could be better” and someone deserves something better. I am learning to trust in Spirit. To trust myself. By not re-reading them and by having more than one on hand, I know that whichever one I magically lay down is the one that is meant to be in that place at that time. No judgment, no regrets!

I head back to the car. The baby is crying in the back. He’s hungry and wants to get out of his seat. I decided to get him out of the car and walk through the shopping center parking lot so he can eat some banana and stretch his little arms and  legs.

“OMG! Someone found it. Someone already found it. They’re reading it right now. OMG OMG OMG! Hurry, give me my camera. Quick hurry before they walk away.”

“What, don’t post their picture”

“I’m not gonna post their picture. I just want to take a picture. I’m gonna take it from here so they don’t see me. It’s my first letter and someone already found it. I have to capture this. It’s a memory of how it all begins”

“Here” (hands me camera phone)

“It’s a girl. And it looks like maybe her dad and her brother. They are reading it and looking around. They are smiling. She’s taking a picture of it… Omg I have to hurry and post the other picture of when I left it to Instagram and Facebook if she goes on there so she can see it.”

I was NOT expecting this at all. I then walk past where they are standing trying to be as nonchalant as possible. I see the big smiles on their faces. I see how happy they were to find a love letter just sitting there, waiting patiently for them to discover it.

A rush of love and happiness fills my body. I feel nervous, and excited, and humbled all at once. I instantly want to do it again. And again and again. That, ladies and gentlemen was my first time. 

Leaving Love Letters for strangers to find is so fun and freeing all at once. Knowing that I left a piece of my soul in that note and knowing that very note found its way to another stranger’s heart and filling them with smiles and love as well, makes it all worth it. Every bit of fear, resistance, discouragement, and self-doubt was all worth it. Because I didn’t let it hold me down. Instead of was able to rise up and work through it. And I will continue to do so, because chances are, those things will come back. Again and again. It’s their job.

I know this movement is going to be big. I feel it with every ounce of my body. I am excited about it every single day. I love sharing it. I love reading emails of people who either found a letter or is planning on leaving one. I love creating fun campaigns to keep people involved. I love designing the website. I love hearing about awesome serendipitous experiences. I love the joy others feel when they leave their own letters. I love how a letter someone found has brightened up their day. I love how an idea I made come to life, has inspired others to stand in their loving as well. I love LOVE and I love spreading LOVE!

I know that step by step, I feel like I’m finally doing what I want to be doing. I am making an impact on the lives of people and I am spreading love to the world. There is nothing greater than that. That is why I am here. To be the vessel in which Love can continue to manifest into my life and the lives of others. Every time someone says “Thank you for starting this”, I can humbly say “I have allowed the idea to flow through me, yes, but this will continue to grow because of people like YOU that are willing enough to share a piece of their heart and being with a stranger” (or something along those lines, you get the point)

This isn’t my movement. This is OUR movement! Thank YOU!

For me, I am learning that as much as leaving letters is a form of spreading love and inspiration to others, it is also a practice of letting go of control and stepping into the unknown. I don’t want to wait around and see every single person that finds a letter. To me, that is not letting go. That is not stepping into the unknown. But I can say, I am glad I was able to witness that very first person find, open, read, and smile about that very first letter I left. It was exactly the affirmation I needed to continue to move forward. So thank you Spirit, for providing that opportunity for me.

To YOU, I hope you join the movement and spread love to your community and wherever you go. It’s FUN! And when it’s your first time, I say just go for it. Write whatever comes to mind, dont judge it. And then just leave it somewhere. Don’t judge that either. TRUST and LET GO! Don’t worry, you’ll want to do it again. I promise!

xoxo,

barista

Advertisements

Fuck It, Its My Birthday!

imageToday is my birthday. YAY!!! I took off work today and had a plan to just spoil myself all day. After all my Good Deed of the Day is to Treat Myself.

Originally my plan was to wake up and do some sort of exercise, maybe go hiking or activate my Dailey Method Living Social Coupon I bought. Then I envisioned going to Lake Shrine and doing some meditation and reading. Followed my coming home and taking a nice bath. After getting ready and maybe getting my hair blow dried at the Drybar followed by a mani/pedi before dinner with my friends tonight. Sounds great huh?

Well I woke up this morning, looked outside and saw nothing but fog. I felt like it instantly made me start to feel lazy as if I didn’t want to start what I was planning on doing. “But it’s gonna be so cold outside” my mind was telling me as my heart just wanted to enjoy the calm of the day. I started listening to my mind which didn’t put me in such a great mood.

I got up, went downstairs where my fiance was making me breakfast and my son was writing on my birthday cards. The energy was off so of course Law of Attraction was doing its job, as always, and the fiance and I started bickering all morning. GREAT! Originally I wanted to blame him for putting me in a not so good mood but I take responsibility for the energy I was putting into the universe. According to my calendar verse today, based on my favorite book Ask and It is Given,

“It is not possible for anyone else to create your reality”. Damn Right.

I drank my healthy veggie/fruit smoothie, ate some eggs and tater tots (my fav), said goodbye to everyone as they headed to work and school, went back upstairs and laid back in bed. My friend was texting me asking me what I was doing today and I was telling her my plans but also my fear that I was going to end up doing nothing that I wanted and waste time being lazy in bed. The whole time just looking outside at the fog feeling that same fog in my body. Looking at my clock, I started feeling miserable as if I was wasting time. It was already 8:30am.

“If I’m going to go hiking, I should go now, but I really want to take a warm bath, it’s so cold outside…. but is it a waste of time to take a bath BEFORE I exercise and get sweaty?…should i go hiking now or later. I havent been in a while, what if I can’t make it all the way. Ok maybe I’ll go to the gym. Or Dailey Method. But will people stare at me because I’m taking the class pregnant? I know pregnant women do it but I’m an out of shape pregnant woman…Ok ill go exercise then while I’m out go get my hair done then take a bath….wait will the bath ruin my newly done hair? Ok maybe I should skip the exercise, take a bath now then go do the other stuff. Wait but what if there’s traffic to get to Lake Shrine and back? hmm is there somewhere else peaceful but closer I can go to. Oh maybe I’ll walk around the lake…. but it’s soooo cold. I’m just wasting time now. I definitely won’t fit everything in now. Damn I bet I’m just gonna end up doing NOTHING that I want to do and just lay in this damn bed all day. Fuck the cold weather.”

All of this was consistently going through my head causing me to lose motivation and of course not feel good about myself. Then my friend text me and writes “Just do what feels good. You don’t have to think about it if you don’t want to.” and it letting those words sink in that gave me instant results. I said “U are right” and I got up and started running myself a warm bath. Something that I havent done in FOREVER!!! and now being pregnant is something that has been very much needed for myself.

“Fuck it if I don’t exercise today. Fuck it if I have to take a bath twice. Fuck it if it doesn’t go as planned. Right now I’m cold and a bath sounds nice so I’m gonna take one.” were the new thoughts going through my head. So I got in the bath, but on my SONGS FOR THE SOUL playlist and enjoyed it for an hour. While I was in the bath I get a text from my fiance telling me that I had a pregnancy massage, pregnancy bath, manicure and pedicure booked at 1:15pm at Burke Williams. Ask and It Is Given.

See, the second I listened to my heart and let go of the fear, my resistance wall went down. My new positive energy was set free into the Universe which in return, I was given EXACTLY what I wanted today. I hadn’t even told my fiance any of my plans. Maybe I won’t exercise today, I won’t get to Lake Shrine, but guess what, I’m taking responsibility of my reality , soooo…. FUCK IT! I’m filling my day with other things that make me feel good, including writing to you and that my friend is a TREAT!

As I was looking in my makeup drawer right before I started to write this blog, I randomly found some birthday cards from last year along with a piece of paper I had written some notes on, I assume from maybe an online seminar I had listened to. One of the notes said:

“No matter how much we work on the physical body, that doesn’t lead us to having the right mindset and consciousness of LOVE. It can actually promote the opposite. Your perception has to change first. If we see ourselves as perfect as we are then we use our positive thoughts to transform us vs the other way around.” Damn right 🙂

Today, in honor of my birthday, I would like you to just say “FUCK IT”. Don’t buy into the negative thoughts in your head. Think good, and do what makes you feel good. Let go of the fear, welcome the sounds of the heart, break the resistance wall with a sledgehammer and watch the Law of Attraction do it’s job, returning you with the ever flowing manifestations of your powerful self.

Most importantly TREAT YOURSELF today!

Gotta jet to the Spa now and get pampered. I’m not even re-reading this before I post. Fuck It! Happy Birthday to Me!

xoxo,

barista

Be Thankful

Good Afternoon and Happy Thanksgiving!

BeThankful

Did you know that the fastest highway to feeling good is to feel Thankful? When you are in a state of Thankfulness/Gratitude/Appreciation, you are in your highest alignment, which allows you to feel the most connected to your Source. The more you find to be thankful for, the better you feel. The better you feel, the more you want to do it. You then begin to enter this cycle of positive thoughts and feelings becoming more and more connected to that of your True Self.

Take a look around you right now, wherever you may be reading this post. Notice something that pleases you and hold your attention on this object/person. Think of all the reasons you are thankful for it. Focus on how useful it is. How beautiful it is. How wonderful it is. The longer you focus on this object or person, your feelings of gratitude will become stronger.

As I type I am noticing my perfume in front of me. It is my favorite perfume. I just sprayed some on my arm. The smell is so sweet and soft. It makes me feel gentle and pretty. It was hard for me to find, so its presence makes me happy. I get compliments when I wear it and it feels nice knowing that its smell makes other people feel nice too. I’m remembering the time when I first sampled it and shared it with someone and they loved it like I did.

Something as simple as the perfume in front of me just brought me to a place of feeling good. It brought forth good memories I have about wearing it and it currently raised my thought vibrations to that of Love, Joy, and Optimism. Qualities that are centered in my core being. I just picked something in front of me to experiment with. I won’t lie, at first it felt silly wondering how perfume would make me feel better than I already was, but the longer I focused on it, the more things came to mind and the higher I felt my vibrations rise.

 

Now look around and choose something else to focus on and continue the process. You will notice after time, it gets easier and easier to appreciate all that is around you. The more you feel good about things, the more good things will flow to you allowing you to continually feel grateful and stay in alignment with your Source and those same qualities that are in your core being.

Sometimes we can hold this space of resistance when thinking about what we want present on our lives. Resistance is that place in which you doubt your power and ability to co-create the life you wish to have. It’s that resistance that blocks what you want from coming to you. The resistance that you hold brings forth thoughts and feelings of frustration, impatience, blame, and unworthiness. All qualities on the opposite realm of what I assume you want to be feeling. But guess what, while you are thinking and feeling those things, you’re just asking the Universe for more of it.

This practice of appreciating allows you to lessen the resistance you hold in your life by allowing you to focus on the Present. You aren’t trying to change or fix something. You aren’t thinking about what you don’t have. You aren’t resisting what you want in the future. You are simply creating thoughts and feelings of Love and Joy for what you have right now, in turn asking the Universe for more of those thoughts and feelings. This will end up lessening your overall resistance because as you become accustomed to feeling good, you’ll then be able to recognize when your vibration changes to thoughts and feelings of resistance and/or feeling bad giving you the opportunity to choose the vibration you WANT to feel. The more you practice and the longer you stay in this feel good place, the faster and faster your awareness will become.

This practice of being Thankful and finding things to appreciate is one that you exercise daily. In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I want you to make it your objection to go through the day noticing all around you and thinking about what you appreciate. Once this practice becomes your intention you will notice that your day will be FILLED with things to appreciate. As the day moves forth, your thoughts of gratitude will start to flow through you naturally. By the end of the day just witness how happy you will be.

be-happy-no-thankful-173059-530-353_large

If you do find yourself feeling defensive throughout the day from an outside source, just remember you have stepped out of that feeling of appreciation and let the feelings of defense take over. You have no control over what energy is being directed AT you, only the energy you are directing outward. If you start to feeling defensive or angry, you have begun to direct that energy outward. The positive thing is that when you are in a state of feeling what you do not want, then it allows you to become more clear of those feelings you do want which allows you to refocus that energy and bringing gratitude back into your awareness.

As I end this post, I just want you to know, I am thankful for YOU! I am thankful for the time it took you to read this post. I am thankful for the posts you have read in the past. I am thankful for the being that you are EXACTLY how you are right now. I am thankful for the moments that led me to you and you to me. I am thankful for your life and contribution to the world by being who you are. I am thankful for the person you are intended to be. I am thankful for the feelings you feel, the thoughts you think, the experiences you experience. Without those things how they were back then and how they are right now, you wouldn’t be you. You are on a road back to Love, back to your Source, and it takes everything you’ve been through, everything you’re going through, to get there on time. I am thankful for the ever-loving beautiful essence that I know resides within. Without YOU there would be no ME! We are one!

One love.

xoxo,

barista