Creating “Miracles” from Juicing

After 93 hours of juice fasting, I had my first full meal on Friday night. I went into the fast with the “I’ll TRY” attitude and never really intended to make it through 7 days. Hell I never though I’d make it far past 1 day but I did a whole heck of a lot better than I imagined. I also feel like I learned so much in the time period I did it.

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The first two days for me were soooooo incredibly hard. You already read how the first day went, well day 2 went pretty similar. I had the same typical obsessive thoughts about food and relating the WANT to taste and chew something to the thought of starvation. More headache and a little light-headedness. I started the morning sipping a juice and had another smoothie at lunchtime which held me over the rest of the work day. I then came home and got ready for the gym. This time I was able to get into a Zumba class so I didn’t have to worry so much about doing boring cardio and thinking about food the whole time.

My son had come to the gym with me and afterwards he wanted some food from Chick-Fil-A. They do have some of the best chicken nuggets I’ve tasted so I knew this was going to be hard. While in the line I was thinking “Maybe I’ll just get the three-piece chicken tenders”. I ordered his food and the attendant ask the closing question, “Would you like anything else?”. As much as I wanted to order me some tenders, I replied “No, that’s it”. I was proud of myself for not giving in. Or as I like to say, telling my “fuck it” brain to fuck off!

He was eating in the back seat and by the time he got home he said he was done. I put him to bed and went back downstairs to check out the left over food. There was one chicken nugget and some french fries. I wanted to throw it all away but my mind got the best of me and I ate the chicken nugget. Knowing that I was going against what I had wanted, I took the french fries and fed them to the dogs. I then went upstairs and went to bed. The funniest thing happened next

I was asking my boyfriend how he was doing with the fast, he said he was fine. I asked him if he had any food at all. He said no at first and then I was telling him how someone had eaten the nuts that were in the pantry. He then broke down and said “Ok, I ate some”. I laughed and said “Oh, so you lied to me”. He answered saying that he was lying to himself. Isnt that something familiar? I’m pretty sure we all try to lie to ourselves about certain things. We act as if we can believe the lie then maybe whatever it is didn’t really happen or exist. We try to make ourselves feel better, not by accepting the truth, but trying to believe a lie.

It was funny because the next thing I said was “OK FINE, I had one of the chicken nuggets”. It was like we both wanted to lie, but honestly it felt so good to tell the truth. It was so funny at the same time because here we are both admitting to eating very small portions of food as if it were bad and we didn’t want to go to hell. There was no judging, we laughed about it and went to sleep.

After I made it past day 1 and 2, I was figuring day 3 was my goal. I wanted to make it through 3 days and see how I felt. Day 3 was a breeze. I hadn’t really thought much about eating at all. I felt like I had the most energy I’ve had in the earlier 2 days and my “starvation” had gone away. I heard usually  after 2-3 days the hunger goes away and I wanted to know if that was true and how not being “hungry” after 3 days of not really eating anything felt.  I felt awesome I and I felt like I had reached my point of satisfaction.

Since we are telling the truth here, ONE of the main reasons I was interested in starting the fast was to lose weight. I had gained weight and was 10 lbs heavier than normal. After spending the last couple months binge eating and eating horribly, the calories had got me. So I was excited to lose a few pounds, especially before leaving for Bali in a few days. The other reason was still true though, I wanted to challenge my discipline and get my control  back. After these last few days, became just an added bonus to what I really got out of it.

I knew that food had a hold on me. During that time period I was gaining ten pounds, I knew so many times when I had eaten stuff I knew inside I didn’t really want to eat but had given in to what I played off as a “weakness”. Its amusing when you actually notice those moments in which you have to make a decision either go towards what your inner self is aligned to or go against it. One of the most important steps in making any type of change is being able to recognize those moments. Do I continue down the path of which I am used to, or do I choose something different? Choosing the path you are used to is usually the easy choice. Usually when it’s easy, you aren’t learning. That moment you decide to choose something different then what you are used to, you have created, what Gabrielle Bernstein would call a “miracle” and you have opened the door to learn something new.

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Throughout this process I’ve had  a few of those moments. The first 20 minutes I was in work I had this moment while staring at chocolate. In 9/10 cases I would have chosen to eat the chocolate. I debated over it in my head and I chose to do something different. I chose to stay on the path in which I wanted to follow. And guess how I knew that was the right path? Because it felt good! I didn’t regret my decision and I didn’t feel bad about it. One of the sure-fire ways to know you are aligned is…YOU FEEL GOOD! A few times I gave in and did what I would normally do. When I ate the pineapple on day 1, I was in that moment and decided to go against myself. I knew the moment right before I chose to eat it that I was eating it because I was making a “fuck it” choice. Something inside of me KNEW that I didn’t need it, that I didn’t want it, that eating it wasn’t aligned to my true choice but that part of me that is used to giving in, gave in.

During the time that I was fasting, especially after making it through day 1 and 2, I realized that I have so much more control over my choices then I give myself credit for. Even through the moments I gave in, there is something to be said about taking responsibility over those choices as well. Realizing that every moment I have a choice and taking full responsibility for my choices, even if they are against my inner self, gives me a sense of freedom. Cutting the excuses and releasing the blame can be very empowering.

Being able  to get through these few days showed me that all the excuses and blame I placed on why my eating habits were the way they were, didn’t really exist. There was no truth behind the excuses or the blame. All the excuses or blame did was made me feel powerless to the choices I was previously making. “I have a sweet tooth”, “I’ll start eating better tomorrow”, “I already fucked up so why stop”. Being able to hold a steady ground pushed those statements out the door.

The best part is, when I did decide to eat on Friday, I was at ESPNZone and there were so many bad things I could have gotten. But again, I had that moment in which I had to make a decision. Trust me, I wanted nothing more than to have some hot wings or some artichoke and spinach dip but in that moment I knew that those things weren’t aligned to my goals so I chose a chicken salad with the dressing on the side.

Now that I have tested myself and I have proof that I can stay on the path in which I want to follow, there is absolutely no excuse or blame for going the other way. If in moments I choose to go the other way, all I have to do is take  responsibility and learn from it. I believe those moments in which I “gave in” were necessary to further that lesson.

I know that I don’t have to eat a chocolate every time I see it. I know that I’m not  gonna die just because I’m not “chewing” something. I know that I don’t have to pick the most unhealthy meal just because it’s an option. I know that if I can  handle a few days of not eating food, that when I do eat it, I don’t have to go overboard. I know that  I have become more mindful to the thoughts that play out in my head and the control I was letting them have on me. I am more mindful of my actions. In that I can be more mindful to my habits and turn them into intentions.

Even though I had a meal on Friday and a meal on Saturday.  I don’t think I am done with the lessons quite yet. I am going to continue on this “juicing” journey. I will place no restrictions on myself but I will continue to pay attention to my mind and my body and listen to what it is teaching me.

My challenge to you is, try to become aware of those moments in which you have a choice…. and choose differently. Even if its something small. Those small “miracles” will lead to great change!

xoxo,

barista

My List!

So remember the other day I wanted you all to make a list of things you wanted to do/change. My main goals are to take care of myself. Mind, body, and soul. I want to naturally just feel better and learn to love myself more. I want to be a better mother. Spend more quality time with my son and cherish every moment. I want to become a better partner for my fiance. Choose love first. I want to be a better friend. Be supportive and present. Be a better daughter, sister, cousin, granddaughter, etc. A better person for myself and all around and involved in my life. This is being a great contributor to society. Learn from others and inspire others to  learn from me. Live in my truth and become more and more my authentic self. That’s what it’s about. Figuring out who you are and living your word.

Here are 35 things that are on my list and it’ll continue to grow throughout the year:
(in no particular order)

1. Spend at least 5 minutes a day deep breathing

2. Juice every morning

3. Stop drinking alcohol for a year

4. Eventually Blog every day

5. Find consistent guest bloggers

6. Read more books (and finish them)

7. Be kind and affirming to myself (and everyone for that matter)

8. Work out 3 times a week or more

9. Go hiking at least once a month

10. Play more games with my son

11. Do a 24 hour water/juice fast once a month

12. Take my son to the park  more or have more playdates

13. drink at least 64oz of water a day

14. Eat siginficantly less amount of processed sugar and foods in general

15. Stretch in the morning

16. Tell the truth

17. Give up being right

18. Learn to meditate better and do it everyday

19. Try Kundalini Yoga

20. Call my mother at least 4-5 times a week

21. Get a facial and/or massage once a month

22. Be more supportive to my fiance

23. Keep my hair curly and enjoy it

24. Create more love, peace, abundance, happiness within myself.

25. Photograph 2 or more weddings

26. Keep a gratitude rock

27. Discover Los Angeles . Visit all the different places I can. Lived here on and off since 2004 and barely been anywhere.

28. Eat at different unique places.

29. Spend at least 1-2 days a week without watching TV

30. Start mentoring through “The Daily Love”

31. Volunteer for an organization

32. Run 3 miles without stopping

33. Send my friends/family birthday cards

34. Wake up at 6am to start my day during the week, by 9am on weekends

35. Surround myself with more positively inspiring people

 

What are 5 things that you want to do/change/become better at?? It’s time to get clear!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

xoxo,

barista

Making Changes.

Happy Holidays Everyone! So I’ve been visiting with my mother for the last 6 nights and while I’ve been here I have gotten this very familiar feeling. It could be because New Years is coming up and we all have those good ‘ol resolutions we all like to make, but this feeling is one of really wanting to make big changes in my life.

I feel like lately I have been tested in different way to show me that I need to live the life I want to live. BE the way I say I want to be. I believe we all have an idea of the type of person we want to become (you know those whispers in your head) and the universe is constantly testing us to see how dedicated we are to living that truth. Isn’t is funny, when you think about being healthy and you even start going to the gym, you get invited to that birthday dinner and surrounded by food that you shouldn’t be eating. What about when you think about wanting to be a compassionate person and then that person you can’t stand is randomly thrown into your path. These are moments in which you are being tested. Will you fail or will you pass? Well it depends on how committed you are.

What has come up a lot for me while I have been here is my eating habits, which propelled me  into thinking about a bunch of other things I want out of my life, some even so simple. It’s the holiday season so yea I have been around a lot of not so good food. Ok, ok, I admit I’ve lived off of red velvet mini cupcakes, green olives, and sugar cookies!!! This has indeed been a reminder of how I DON’T want to live. I know, I should be able to excuse myself for the sake of the holidays, which could be true if I had eaten healthy the rest of the year, but really the opposite has been true. At least for the last few months. I have been very very gluttonous to say the least.

This morning was looking at a bunch of people’s before and after pics from eating clean, and training hard, and I just felt this motivation inside of me to really become that person that can follow through on her goals. I have been so close in the past and it’s almost like when I knew what I was doing was working, or that I was succeeding at my goal, I started to mess it up. Like I wanted to prove to myself “see I’m not worthy”. Today that familiarity came with thinking that “I AM WORTHY”. Knowing that I CAN make the changes I want to make. Knowing that I do deserve to reach my goals. You do too!!! It was a familiar feeling because deep down its the pure thought and it’s this single thought that will change your life because you are destined to live the life you dream. We all know that thoughts lead to action. So what actions have you been taking? How have your thoughts contributed to that?

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I feel like in my head, I know a bunch of changes I want to make, goals I want met, and it’s easy to “forget” what they all are at certain times, or not think of them often. So I think I want to write them all down. I just got a new journal that I want to start writing in so maybe that’s a perfect place to start. For some reason, writing things down makes them a little more permanent. Also when you make lists like that you start to think more clearly and you can come up with some things you may have not even thought about to a certain extent before.

I know we still have a few days before the New Year but today I want you to make a list of the things you want to work on. Juicing every morning, washing your face every night, having 10 minutes to yourself every afternoon, doing something new once a month…I challenge you to write all the things you want to change, start, do. Do it without judgement. Remember you can’t begin to change something if you can’t admit it needs changing. Start today!! This way when the new year comes, you are ready with your list and you are motivated with a clear vision already in sight. I’m interested in some of the things on your list. I’ll share mine when it’s done. I’ve actually been dying to do this!!! Don’t forget, you can continue to add to this list as you think of more things. Just make sure you WRITE IT DOWN! Watch how an act so simple will change your perspective!

xoxo,

barista

12/21/12 : The Threshold to a New Beginning.

well well well, today is December 21, 2012. The apocalypse every one has waited for. I assume if you are reading this, we are still alive or you are the one of few that survived. Or maybe this is the year 3026 and someone found my computer under dirt. Just messing.

Anyways… so everyone thought the world is going to end today. But guess what? we’re still here as I’m sure you can tell. The Mayan calendar couldn’t go on to infinity ya know. And of course there’s those patterns of all the ages…prehistoric, dark, ice, etc that all end in some catastrophe. Well guess what, I believe this all to be true.

I wrote a note on Facebook a while back talking about how maybe the world IS going to end. Since you are still reading this, maybe your perspective on what END means has to change and in that is the foreshadow to what lies ahead. A massive shift in perception. One meaning of the word END means “the last part or extremity”. Instead of a physical end or the end to humanity, maybe this is just the end to an era we have lived in. I think we are leaving an era of sleep and awakening to the dawn of a new day.

We awaken to see the potential of the new era awaiting our arrival. December 2012 is thought to be the closing of a chapter and now we are shifting into the power of consciousness.

Some people who believe in astrology believe that the dates 12/12/12 and 12/21/12 are closely related. That 12/12/12 is the opening of a gateway with 12/21/12 being the final walk-through. Supposedly we should have been aware of what was happening with us on 12/12/12 as it if a foreshadow of where you are headed as you cross the threshold. Dang, wish I knew this ahead of time! There are now new possibilities seeded within and from this day forward you will never be the same. Anyone experience a big change or something interesting happen between these dates? I would love to hear about it if so!

Welcome to the era of Enlightenment. Remember to wear your sunglasses.
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The “Golden Age” has begun. Our awareness is being expanded as you read. We are now entering a world in which we will come closer to our true being. We start to connect with our high source and understand our purpose here. It is said that throughout this transformation, eventually, everything negative will be forgotten about and instead the new world will be filled with love, peace, and happiness. We probably wont live to see this perfect world, and our children may never either, but as our lineage extends on and on they will come closer and closer to this time. Isn’t it amazing to think that it all starts with US.

When we are born, we are born with the energy of Love. It is as natural as the breath we take. But over time we learned to love ourselves less and less. Some even eventually were led to believe love is dangerous. Well that is coming to an end. We are coming to experience that love is NOT dangerous. We are burning all we “thought” to be true and welcoming all we KNOW to be true. Love is the ANSWER not the problem. It starts with the love for ourselves.

We are alive today during this time period for a reason. We are the beginning of a new chapter. The fifth dimension. I don’t know about you but this is awesome. There is a lot of power in our hands now. The threshold is here and LOVE is the password. We will re-learn to love ourselves. And through that, teach and inspire our children who will then continue to pass the great gift. And although we may not be around to witness the human race collectively living in a world of peace, love, and happiness, we can make sure that we INDIVIDUALLY can witness peace, love, and happiness before our end. The world IS our perception anyways right?

I mean havent you noticed more and more people becoming attracted to some sort of consciousness. How many positive quotes do you see/read daily? How many blogs have you come across? How many conversations have you had? More people interested in changing the world. More people interested in yoga and meditating. More people becoming more spiritual and less religious. It seems like more and more people are going through a process of discovering their purpose. It’s more than just a fad.

Going back to the pure heart we once knew is probably one of the hardest things to do because through that journey we must go through a great deal. In order for lessons to be learned we must suffer. Be ready… all your shit is about to come up! But don’t worry because you will pass through these times, you will learn the lessons faster and faster, and in the end you will become a greater being for the sake of humanity.

I ask you, from this point forward, pay attention! notice the shifts happening around you. Pay attention to what comes up for you in your life. What you can learn. Pay attention to this things brought you way and the love you attract. Pay attention to the conversations you see or have. Pay attention to the shifts you go through. Lastly, Pay attention to your intuition! As that is your higher self speaking to you. LISTEN!!! Because after today, your world as you know it will never be the same.

xoxo,

barista

RIGHT NOW!

relax_your_mindI realized I want need to become more present in the moment. Seems so cliché and easy to say, yet is one of the hardest things to do. I spend way to much time worrying about the future, as most of us do. Thinking about…planning for…being scared of!!! The problem with that is that the future never ends up exactly how we envision it to be. Shit just doesn’t always go as planned. Think about it, when has something gone EXACTLY how planned? probably never, but stuff ALWAYS works out and life always moves on, doesn’t it.

We tend to stress so much over the “what ifs” but the key is KNOWING that even if things go worse than planned, those moments are just a tiny piece of a bigger picture for you.

Think about some of the things you stress over when thinking about the future. How much time is wasted stressing out? Time that you can never get back. Wouldn’t it be nice to know that things will work out just the way it needs to? Well the secret is, IT DOES! Things ALWAYS work out for the best even if now it doesn’t seem so. How many times have you looked back and realized that all the stress was unneccessary? Yet for some reason, we continue to act the same way again and again and again.

The lesson is to TRUST! Trust in the Universe! Trust in yourself! If you have faith in higher power, you need to have faith in yourself. They go hand in hand. Your level of trust in yourself is a mirror of the trust you have in something greater.

You should still have goals, ideas, and plans but you have to KNOW that no matter what your goals, plans, and ideas for the future are, you will get to where you need to be yet sometimes it’s not in the way you expected. You have to let go of the expectations to make room for something more grand to happen. Start thinking about all the things you want to change. Things you want to come to you. What kind of person do I want to be and what do I want for my life?

For your creations to become reality you have to take action which requires you to respond to today! The present. Think about, what can I do TODAY to move closer to what I want? How can I enjoy TODAY?

Think about RIGHT NOW. What you have in your life RIGHT NOW. Be thankful for RIGHT NOW. That’s gratitude at its highest form. Being thankful for where you are, who you are, and what you have RIGHT NOW!!

When you do that, all the worries and stress tend to go out the window. You can breathe in the air of the moment and experience life…. which is RIGHT NOW. The past doesn’t exist anymore and the future never comes. The ONLY thing we have is RIGHT NOW

Living in the past or the future, or in many cases both, does nothing but limit you from becoming the greatest you can be.When you are living from one of those places, you are actually missing right now. And if you are missing right now, you are missing life. If you are missing life, then whats the point?

Living in the present allows you to paint on a blank slate in every moment. You can create whatever you want. Whatever you dream. That’s the fun part. It shouldnt be stressful. Every moment is new. It’s not fun painting on a canvas that’s already used.  When you live in the present you begin to LIVE. You begin to be HAPPY. You don’t waste any more of your time being regretful or afraid. The stresses lessen because you KNOW that no matter what, your path and all the things that have happened or are going to happened are for your greater good so you can reach your highest potential. The faster you start to recognize that and see how it’s played in your life RIGHT NOW, the more time you have to live a HAPPY fulfilled life and make every moment count and THAT is the point! Look at how fast time flies… don’t you want to be able to feel new every day? every moment.

So I challenge you to practice living in the now. One easy way to do that is just showing gratitude. Being thankful for right now. Let go of any pain from the past and any expectations from the future and just witness the miracles in front of you. Even if just for a moment a day…stop, breathe, and enjoy RIGHT NOW!

xoxo,

barista

My Truth: Finding Freedom

ok ok here goes… I know I was bordering avoidance. I know I teased you guys a few posts ago about doing something that took a lot of strength. The strength was this… I had to tell the truth! Seems so simple right, but expressing truth is one of the hardest things for people to do. To fully own themselves, good and bad.

“If you are in any way keeping a secret, or if you are in any way pretending to be something that you are not, you will never ever become all that you were meant to be. It just cannot happen.”  -Oprah

A while ago, I had discovered the one most powerful thing I wanted was to have as much freedom as I could get. Freedom from this man made prison built within my own mind. Well Freedom = Truth. So to grasp freedom, one has to learn how to grasp truth. Based on how much our ego runs the show, it’s hard for many of us to even recognize what our real truth is. We have who we are, and who our ego wants us to be. Ego likes to think we are all seperate, therefore it is CONSTANTLY comparing us to others as better or worse. In reality, to our soul, we are all the same. Learning to recognize this one concept will help you discover what your truth is. One of my goals with this blog is to question and test my beliefs and be able to share what I experience by doing so. All those great quotes and articles we read and share …yes they make sense, they sound right, but how often do we test them to see how they relate to us.

When you express your truth, you know that those attracted to your life are there because they accept you for who you are. What I consider to be the highest form of relationships, is that built off of truth. I’m sure in your head you are saying, “of course Barista… we all want relationships based this” or maybe you’re even saying, “I don’t know about you, but I already have relationships based on truth”. My response to you is “Yes you say that, but do you really?”

Try to think about all the restrictions you have in your life put on by you or others. Is it possible to have freedom with restrictions? And I’m not talking about restrictions like rules and laws you have to follow in society, but restrictions placed on your need of expression. To express how you feel, what you want, who you are. What are some reasons people are afraid to express themselves? Fear of hurting someone, fear of losing someone, fear of not being accepted… common theme is FEAR. This fear makes us hide what we think…what we feel…who we are. When we are hiding even a piece of who we are, we are then pretending to be something we are not. When you are pretending to be something you are not, then how can you ever be who you are suppose to be. Like Oprah said, it’s IMPOSSIBLE!   

 Back in March I had read Oprah’s quote above, and it resonated with me instantly. But still I was convinced that I could get over telling the truth by just becoming a better person and moving forward. If I was going to be a better person then what good was the truth to know. See that’s the thing. There is no change without truth. There were plenty of lessons being taught in this one experience and that was one of them I was ignoring. What happens when we don’t learn the lesson? It keeps coming back in different form until we decide to get to finally get it. I couldn’t just stop and be a better person if I couldnt be truthful. So guess what? All the times I thought I could just stop and move forward, I couldn’t…because people don’t make change by avoiding the truth, they change by confronting the truth.

I recently had to reveal myself to a friend which meant not only did I have to tell the truth, but I had to be vulnerable. Vulnerability = Truth. My truth was that I was going through some pain and insecurities and to mask that I was “acting out” in ways to prove my insecurities and pain right. I knew this acting out wasn’t who I was and I felt shame for it so I then was hiding how I was acting out. I felt restricted from being able to express my insecurities and what I was going through out of  fear of not being understood. But do you see how I created this prison for myself. I didn’t KNOW if I was going to be accepted or not. I just feared it. And through this fear I created shame. And through this shame I was punishing myself for something that wasn’t even true.  When you act out in order to mask your true self, it’s usually a temporary feel good but in the long term you end up feeling bad. When you feel bad, all that means is that you aren’t aligned with whats in your heart. I didn’t like the person I was “acting out” as so I became dedicated to figuring out how to heal the real fear and pains. How on earth do I EVER expect to build relationships and expect people to accept my truth and share with me theirs if I wasn’t accepting it myself?

Every time you lie, big or small, you are hiding a piece of who you are and how you feel. By telling the truth I understood were ways my friend could react to it. Was I afraid? Of course I was. I was so afraid that just thinking about telling the truth made my heart beat fast, my palms get sweaty and I practically had an anxiety attack. That’s how I knew I had to do it…because I was uncomfortable. Stepping outside of your comfort zone is the best way to learn though and if I wanted to learn truth I had to live truth.  If I wanted someone to accept me for who I was, I had to reveal who I was. I learned who I AM was not who I was being. Suddenly hiding and lying was no longer an option. Instead of it coming down to, is this person going to accept me or not, it came down to do I accept myself? As long as I accept myself then those that dont accept me dont deserve to be in my life in the first place. There was a sense of peace in accepting my truth and placing that first. How did I know if this other person was or wasnt going to accept who I was if I didn’t just admit who I was. So there I was, on the edge of the cliff…. I could stand there staring down scared of what would happen or I could jump into the arms of freedom. You can’t learn to fly if you don’t jump first.

So I did it. I jumped. I told the truth. At that moment I was jumping into my freedom and into my expression and into being myself.

I knew in that moment of truth that I was owning who I had been and what I did.  Did that make the lying and hiding ok? Absolutely not but I was taking responsibility for whatever the outcome. These lies and hiding had nothing to do with any other people and ALL to do with ME. I know the lies and hiding and my “acting out” wasn’t who I was destined to be. I had to deal with accepting what I was going through and confronting the truth.  These lies weren’t something to be proud of and was hurtful towards another person but when I revealed them I immediately felt free. Not because I didn’t care about the other persons feelings, but because in that moment I was speaking my truth and the truth will set you free. Guess what? They accepted me! So all those fears weren’t even true in the first place. Imagine that 😉

My challenge to you is to figuring out what you are hiding.  What piece of yourself are you keeping locked up?  How are you restricted? What are your fears about expressing your truth?  How can you test those fears unless you be yourself and see what happens? When you lie, notice what you are avoiding? Every time you feel fear its your soul begging for truth. I dare you to jump and experience how it feels to fly!!! We all make mistakes, its the only way to learn. You owe it to yourself to love all of you, mistakes and all. You are owe yourself the truth. You owe yourself freedom. You owe it yourself to be all you are meant to be. When love your truth, someone else will too!

xoxo,