I’m Baaaaaaack!

Hello-Im-back

Did you miss me? I never thought I would have to take two months off from blogging but I guess that’s how long I needed. I’ve missed you so much, I hope you missed me. I am excited to be back and super excited to start working on a new layout and really get this blog off the ground.

As you may know, I had my darling little baby boy. He was born one month ago from day on March 30. Of course he’s growing so fast!!! I ended up going to school the weekend he was born and during the Saturday class I started having contractions. I sucked it up and stayed in class because they were pretty random but about an hour or so before class was over they started getting painful so I got picked up. Within about 10 minutes of being picked up I went into labor, having contractions 5 minutes apart. I went to the hospital and 19 hours later, my new baby boy was born into this world.

I had a crazy delivery, but will spare you the details. My mom was in town from the San Francisco Bay Area and I was lucky enough to have her stay for a month. She was completely helpful and I miss her now. This is the first week I have had the baby completely by myself during the daytime and for the last two days it was a little difficult but hey, that’s how newborn are huh. It’s been so long, I forget. Luckily my other son is in school and after school care because it makes it easier during the day. My other son is absolutely in love with his little brother though, it’s amazing to experience. I love seeing the bond they are developing!

I’m glad to be back. I haven’t forgotten about Good Deeds either, I’ve missed a lot so far this year but excited to get back to the journal. Hope you have extended some Random Acts of Kindness along the way.

One thing I am excited about is having more guest bloggers and posts. I’ve always seen this blog being a place to share others amazing writings and views along with my own so having more guest bloggers and posts is a start. If you are interested in sharing a blog post, feel free to contact me. Also if you have any ideas of what you want to see/read in the future, I would LOVE to hear your opinions.

Let’s get this baby off the ground finally.

For now, say Hi to Kade!

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He’s actually waking up now so I gotta run, thanks for sticking around and talk to you again soon!

 

xoxo,

barista

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From Thinking to Writing/Speaking

Ever go through something in your head and know exactly what you want to write or talk about but can’t form it into words? It’s almost as if your head speaks a different language then your mouth knows. This happens to me often and the main reasons it’s so hard for me to write. My brain is very active and I am always thinking and putting things together until it makes sense to me but then when it comes to letting it out, I just can’t put it into words. It;s weird because when I am thinking it’s obviously as if I am thinking in English but then how come the words I’m thinking can’t be just transferred onto paper or come out of my mouth?

Anyone else, especially bloggers, have this problem? If so I would LOVE to hear some ideas of any things you do to help you express exactly how you feel or are thinking into words? Is there a process you go through that helps? It can be very overwhelming to feel like you have so much to say or explain, and so much going on in your head yet feel like it’s just suck in your head. Maybe I dont prepare enough before I write. Maybe I should take notes thruogh out the day. Maybe I should have a ritual. I dunno!!!

This is where I am at right now and would love to learn what other people who may have similar issues may do to make the process easier.

Thanks xoxo,

barista

I’m Baaaaaack!

So I have been a little M.I.A (and no that’s not Miami) for the last month or so. So many changes have happened and truthfully I just didn’t make time for the blog. I beat myself up for it a bit but then realized that it’s ok to take a break! Sometimes when you take a break and sit out for a bit you can come back refreshed and brand new.

So upon starting this little post I decided that I want to really give my true authentic self. I know I have said this over and over andddd over again but it’s the part I struggle with when it comes to this blog. I worry so much about readers and followers that I don’t focus much on just allowing my inside to shine out. No expectations. When you have no expectations is when you can allow yourself to receive the highest results and most times that can come in ways we NEVER expected.

I decided it’s about time for me to start a routine to have that time to myself in order to touch on the feelings that are usually pushed aside. I realized that as in tuned with my SELF as I am, I am just as much out of tune. Ever get asked, “How are you feeling?” and your typical answer is “Good” or “I’m okay”. Do you even know that means to you? Do you REALLY know how you’re feeling? Can you accurately describe your feelings? How do you know you feel that way? What in your body is telling you so? These are questions most of us don’t even think about before uttering the expected “I’d doing good”. If you don’t know the answers then how do you know that how you describe to be feeling is even accurate to whats really going on? The only way to find out is to start investigating the truth behind the words.

As mentioned in my very first blog, I am an avoider. I avoid FEELING. So as part of my routine I want to start to meditate and sit with my feelings and write from my heart and from what I feel. This way it can come from a pure place, even if painful, instead of a place in which I need validation or recognition. I used to get so scared about writing… “what if I’m not good enough” but if I allow myself to write about whatever comes up I can do no wrong because that is what needs to be dealt with at that time.

I just finished my first mediation partially guided by a small script in Gabrielle Bernstein’s book “Add more -ing to your life”.  I downloaded some relaxing meditation music and just focused on breathing. I sat on my couch, put my hands to my side and took deep breaths in. I worked on focusing where the pain was coming from. At first I thought my stomach and I was trying to breathe through the pain. Then as I was doing that I started thinking “well why would it come from my stomach, shouldnt it be my heart or something”. There’s that expectation again. I wasn’t even sure if anything was really coming from my stomach either at that point.

After taking a few deep breaths, my head started to feel like it was floating and it started moving what felt very slowly but uncontrollably. It fell back against the couch and slowly was moving up and down , left and right. I immediately thought about “Ask and It Is Given” when Abraham got Esther’s attention and of course I then started trying to figure out if my head was making letters. Yup expectation again! When I caught myself I re-focused back on breathing and just allowing whatever was happening to just happen. It almost felt like a masseuse was guiding my head in circles trying to loosen it up and get my to just relax and let it in.

Maybe that was my answer… Maybe that is where my pain is located. In my head. Maybe in all my expectations. I will have to touch on that more but it was an enlightening experience none the less and led me to start up this post and come back to My Mornin Coffee. So here we go, with intention to let the expectations go, starting with this blog. This is not a “normal” post for me…there is no “message” but some times maybe there doesn’t need to be. Some times the words just need to be free with nothing in mind but to glide. And I will allow that to be ok.

Thanks for having me back!

xoxo,

Post #70

So here we are at post #70. Let’s take a look at our progress so far:

In the past 7 months My Mornin Coffee has had 4,936 toal views in 92 different countries

Top 5 Countries (Views):
1. USA (3728)
2. CANADA (188)
3. CROATIA (151)
4.  UNITED KINGDOM (91)
5. AUSTRALIA (70)

Most Popular Day: September 26, 2012 (159 views)

Most Popular Month: September 2012 (1,727 views)

Top Post: I Love You Means… (1,963 views)

Blog Subscribers: 48
Facebook Followers: 87

Posts: 70
Average monthly:10
Average weekly: 2-3

Thanks to everyone involved!!! When I first started this blog I was unsure of who was really going to read it and I’m glad to have reach so many people so far.

If you enjoy My Mornin Coffee, feel free to spread the word and share with friends and family. There is so much more ahead to come!!!

Thanks again,

xoxo