finally coming to an end of my MCM journey. It only took me a few months 🙂 Here we are week 6. I started Day 36 on April 11th and finally coming to an end in a few days. You could probably guess I had to do week 6 more than once. Three times to be exact. The first time I attempted I was about to start day 39 and just didn’t feel like I had focused well on the previous days so decided to do it again. The second attempt, I had gotten to the evening exercise of Day 39 and kept forgetting to do it. I actually didn’t end up picking up the book for like 4 days so again wanted to start the week again. I’m still finishing a few days but want to at least put out there the first half of the week.
Week 6 is all about becoming a miracle worker. Realizing that your job is not limited to just yourself. It’s about becoming a miracle worker for the world. Helping others. You are a better help for others when you help yourself first. You can inspire and understand through experience.
“You’ll realize the transformation is not for you alone. You’ll learn that you’re here to use this gift to shine light on the dark world around you. You become a miracle worker in the world. As you begin to understand how love is crucial to the healing of the world, your miracle work will take on a whole new meaning.” – Gabrielle Bernstein
The beginning of the week, Day 36, is like the beginning of all the week. Witnessing your fears. “For my peace and the peace of the world, I choose love”. Each week there was a theme and each first day of the week started with witnessing your fears in perspective of what the theme was. Your fears about your body, career, money, relationships. This day it’s witnessing your fears in perspective of knowing that you MUST do so for the sake of the world.
The thing that stood out to me on this day was that FEAR is not real. I know that I have actually mentioned that in a previous post, how fear even stands for FALSE EVIDENCE APPEARING REAL. Fear has a good way of feeling so real in the moment. It’s easy to recognize when others are in a fearful state but it takes a lot of patience and mindfulness to recognize it in yourself and change your mindset. Knowing this and experiencing this should already help us relate to others with the compassion we need to offer ourselves. My practice and work is to become more aware of my fears IN THE MOMENT and choosing not to react as a result of fear.
“Inner Guide, I welcome you to show me where to go, what to do, and what to say“. This was the affirmation for Day 37. The book mentions that the more you start to dedicate yourself to love, the MORE your ego will work against that notion. The funny thing that I just put together is that during the 3 times I have worked on week 6, I think my ego was working in overload this whole time. I feel like I have gotten in more arguments with my fiance, reacting more to his actions, allowing my ego to take control. I’m almost positive it came along because I had been to open to becoming a miracle worker. And guess what, truthfully many times, my ego won! That’s actually part of the reason I wanted to do the week over again and again because I had acknowledged that I had not been putting my love skills to work. The only choice I choose though, is to keep moving forward and keep at it.
On this Day I had to witness the present fears and choosing to turn them over to my Inner Guide.
Some of my fears on this day were:
*I’m not good enough to be a mentor/coach
*I will continue to work in a job that I don’t LOVE and that isn’t taking me towards my goals
*I am scared of marriage
*Not giving my child enough attention.
*Re-living my past
*Not having another baby soon
*I won’t get the freedom I am looking for
*To stand in my truth fully without waver
Along with what I took in from Day 36, I had to recognize that these fears weren’t real and I had still have to trust that my inner guide will handle it from here and if I listen will lead me to the path that’s best for me.
I already shared with you guys Day 38. Click this link so you can read it.
Although the book is a 40 day guidebook, it technically goes to 42 days to finish out the week completely so I will share days 39-42 with you in a few days.